Friday, January 7, 2011

things I’m looking forward to in January


My first of two baby showers is this Saturday

My wonderful girlfriends at church are throwing it for me.
I’m going with my mom
They are the sweetest bunch of ladies
I’m nervous that I won’t remember everyone’s name
But I’m excited

My other baby shower is also in January
My mom and sister are throwing this one
I’m much more comfortable with the idea of this one
It’s at my mom’s
And I know everyone on the guest list
They’re having a brunch
And I can’t wait for this one either

We will also be finishing our basement organization project

We will hopefully also be installing organization/shelving in the baby’s closet
as well as a book/toy shelf in a cute little corner behind the bedroom door
call me a nerd, but my organizational-loving side is excited about this

We will be attending our one-day childbirth preparation class this month
I think curtis is more nervous than I am.
I haven’t gotten nervous yet
I wonder if the nerves strike later on
Or if I’m just naïve
I’m more excited
Even about the actual delivery
Than nervous

I may pack a hospital bag towards the end of the month
Or at least make a list of what I should pack
Curtis is making me paranoid about not being ready if he comes early
I told him two months early we’ll have more to worry about than
Not having a bag packed
But we did have a friend just give birth a month early
So I guess late January isn’t totally out of the question
But first I have to do some research/ asking around as to what
One even puts in their hospital bag when they go to have a baby
I have no clue
I am naïve, aren’t it?

I also go to the OB twice this month.
The up side is that I get to hear my boy’s heartbeat twice
I like to hear it
It’s fast and strong and
Cute as a button
The downside is that my nerves always make my blood pressure rise a bit
I’ve been told I have white coat syndrome
I used to protest, but I really think I do
When I can convince them to take it again at the end of my appointment it’s always fine
I also don’t like being weighed
Especially when I can barely get them to let me put down my
20 pound purse
Let alone take off my boots, winter jacket and all my other layers of bulky winter clothing
That adds around 4 to 5 extra pounds per visit
And since I started being weighed in the summer
They just roll their eyes when I explain that I haven’t gained those last 5 pounds they’re adding on there
It’s annoying
And also makes my blood pressure rise

I will be eating a TON of clementines
I love them
I eat at least three every day at work
I think I may get a few weird looks when I’m on my third in the late afternoon
But I don’t care
Our love goes deep
They are absolutely one of the best things about winter
Apart from the fact that this extra baby weight is keeping me
Warmer than I ever thought possible in our 58 degree house
(I’m not joking – the average temperature in our home is 58 degrees in the winter)
But I will keep it low anyday for a gas bill under a $150 mid-winter.
I’ve got this baby and my love of clementines to keep me warm

And lastly, once January is over, I will be four weeks closer to meeting our guy
Seriously, once February 1st hits, we’ll only have about 4 weeks to go
(okay, 4 weeks and 5 days, but who’s counting?)
I’m secretly still holding out hopes for a February baby
I keep being told it’s not likely
And to not get my hopes up
But my mom encourages me by telling me that I was two weeks early
So maybe M* will be too!
Naïve or hopeful?
Maybe both

January is going to be a good month
I can feel it
Besides the whole going back to work thing
After a 16 day hiatus
It’s been pretty good so far
I see my husband at night
I see the baby move in my belly at night too
And I see the finish line ahead.
I’ve always liked January
Not for the cold and snow
But for the time it provides to reacquaint us with all things new
A new year
A fresh start
New goals
And dreams for a brand new year
I love that
I love breaking into a crisp new journal
With words that I didn’t know were lingering stagnant within
I love the possibilities of the unknown
I love looking back
And looking forward in the same hopeful glance
I love possibility
Potential for change
Making plans
And being okay to let them shatter and break at our feet
January is a sweet month
Always has been and hopefully always will be


We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up
a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to
balance the list, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives...
not looking for flaws, but for potential.
-Ellen Goodman
For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
-T.S. Eliot, "Little Gidding"
One resolution I have made, and try always to keep, is this:
To rise above the little things.
-John Burroughs


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